Ultimate

Hi.  My name is Stephanie and I'm an addict.  Put me in a 12-step program.  I am addicted to my son!  Everyone says it's the best feeling in the world, being a parent, and I knew it would be.  But I have to say, I severely underestimated how wonderful it would feel.  I absolutely adore him.  I never imagined my heart could feel this full with love and amazement.  Who needs drugs when you can have this kind of high?  Maybe it's heightened because of our struggles, maybe not.  All I know is, when I look at him, I feel complete and thankful and appreciative.  I am in awe.  I see the same in my husband's eyes when he looks at him and touches him.  I think he is surprised how much he feels for this little wonder; he knew he would love him but I'm pretty sure he is also addicted and had no idea he would be to this degree.  I'm trying my best to explain this love we feel, but words really can't.

Our son is my hero.  He has been through so much already and has done such a remarkable job of fighting and being brave.  He is becoming such a strong, big boy.  A good friend of mine asked me what I see when he opens his eyes and looks at me.  I see knowledge and recognition.  Beyond that, I can't describe what I see.  I feel what I see, and I realize that doesn't make sense to anyone but me but that's what it is.  He is an amazing little life and I love him.  I am his mommy and it's the best feeling in the world.